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Hey....finally have my own blog.. i wonder if anyone is reading this. Well lately something has been bothering with my emotion. So many thoughts so many things. I hate emotion problem, makes me feel like dunno what to do. I feel so lonely now. 12.00am sitting in my bed room alone.I hope i have a brother to play with. Even though i am in a relationship, i still wonder that is she the right person i want? Come thinking back of it what did i get from this love? How come i am feeling that she is the one who get all the benefits while i am not. I kinda agree with what my pal told me today,"Maybe she can find what she wants from you but you cannot find what you want from her." I agree with him but what do i really want? And i thought i am a superman where nothing can bother me.Lol....silly me...Am I? If i myself don't know what i want and expect from a relationship, then who shall i ask? Lately she has finished working, and again i feel so lonely. I was hurt after bombardment from her last few weeks. Even of her birthday party i was kinda hurt. Did i really think too much?Few weeks of bombardment makes me wonder, what characteristic should i keep on playing in this love? I know she was tired but then what about me?........................further thinking needs to be done i guess.............