珍惜

今夜我的爱人回去读书了。我以为我可以克服我情绪，发现原来我不可以。。。。刘墉说得对，：“爱因为捉不住。”当她在我身边的时候，我觉得生活还是得过；当她回去了，才发现原来她是重要的。许多时候人生都是要等失去了，才知道什么是重要，什么不重要。许多人认为早晨起来是一件应该的事，活着是理所当然的，但事实往往相反。

因此我要每天早上告诉我自己：

谢谢我还活着。
谢谢我有一段美丽的爱情和对我非常好的女朋友。
谢谢老天赐我一个美丽的家。
谢谢身体健康。

活着就要珍惜，不然人生是灰色的。

Point of View

Point of view, strong words for me. In fact, it suppose to be a strong word for everyone. Why do I say so? It's because it is the point of view of ourself drive us where we go on the path of life. Yet, you may ask is my point of view right or wrong in some cases? I may say it depends on where you live and how you live your life.I myself have a few point of views and I believe it's these point of view that makes Tan Ting Wui.....

Firstly I think life is just a game. A good player makes everyone happy and a bad player only makes him or herself happy. A good player will have lots of money and a bad player don't. A good player have have a happy family and a bad player don't. Yet, when the game is over, everything is just dissapear. So for those who believe in reincarnation, the games restart with a different playing style.

Secondly, I think that I am wasting my time living in earth. Why am I here? Why do i need to go to university learning a bunch of silly things which is defined by those who so call "Scientist" and "Professor"? Worse thing is I am living in Malaysia yet all my syllable in university is base on America......

And thirdly......Why should I care how people judge me? OH WHAT THE HELL!!!! I should not live in people's eye. I should really let them think what they thought of about me.Different people just have different idea. Yet, as a Chinese, I was taught not to embarase myself by not doing this and that. Yet when i grow up, I think those "Don'ts" which i was taught are the things which i must learn now to be a new and open me.

Sometimes i hate being me and sometimes i love being me.........lol....confusing. I should really rebuild my confident and really should quit being a person who thinks i know everything. So how?I try to be confident and for me being confident is because i think i know many things. In the contrary I should not think i know everything......crashing T.T.......

But in the end i need to be brave. I should not always try to find all those answers for the questions which pop out from my mind. I should just ask instead of assuming this and that. I hope someday i have the guts to quit what i think i should not be doing but are forced to. I should not bow to life as I am the master of it, not the slave!!!

The Silent Shadow

I am nobody but a shadow. When my job is done, people forget me.....I am just a shadow, which stay behind watching people celebrate their happiness even thought things cannot be done without me guiding....Yet, I am great in somebody's eye who can see the real me and know the real me.....those who know me call me.....King Shadow......too bad, only a few knows me well, not even the person who think she is close to me......

Starter

Hey....finally have my own blog.. i wonder if anyone is reading this. Well lately something has been bothering with my emotion. So many thoughts so many things. I hate emotion problem, makes me feel like dunno what to do. I feel so lonely now. 12.00am sitting in my bed room alone.I hope i have a brother to play with. Even though i am in a relationship, i still wonder that is she the right person i want? Come thinking back of it what did i get from this love? How come i am feeling that she is the one who get all the benefits while i am not. I kinda agree with what my pal told me today,"Maybe she can find what she wants from you but you cannot find what you want from her." I agree with him but what do i really want? And i thought i am a superman where nothing can bother me.Lol....silly me...Am I? If i myself don't know what i want and expect from a relationship, then who shall i ask? Lately she has finished working, and again i feel so lonely. I was hurt after bombardment from her last few weeks. Even of her birthday party i was kinda hurt. Did i really think too much?Few weeks of bombardment makes me wonder, what characteristic should i keep on playing in this love? I know she was tired but then what about me?........................further thinking needs to be done i guess.............